Insecure

I accepted a facebook friend request a week ago. The request was from a guy I knew who is very successful in the film business. We had been out of touch for a few years. I looked at his FB pictures and was amazed by the incredible pictures of his travels. He travels all around the world! Now I regret accepting his request. I looked at my FB pictures and suddenly feel inadequate. I haven’t posted a picture since I became his friend. I am shocked by the grandeur of his life. I hit a low point in my life and was feeling ok that I’m somehow surviving, now I don’t feel that way.These are a few of my pictures and his pictures.

My picture- Ice cream with my kids. I used all the change I could find to buy it and I had a coupon. I also used the old excuse that I wasn’t hungry because I couldn’t afford another icecream.                                                His picture-at the Italian Rivera having gelato. (Somehow I doubt he used a coupon for his gelato or paid for his flight with change)

My picture-paintings my kids made. (By the way I had a coupon for the two hour art class where they painted.                                   His picture-waiting in line to see The Last Supper. I’m thinking there were no coupons involved here either.

My picture-my birthday meal at chick fil a.                                                             His picture-His birthday meal he ate while at the French Alps. (Too bad for him no chicken strips, I assume)

I went to Studio City

He went to Switzerland. 

If I could unfriend him I would but I think he would notice. If I post I hope he is just too busy looking at his other friends lives to notice my posts. So if you follow me on FB and notice I stopped posting now you know why. It’s nothing my FB friend did that makes me want to unfriend. To quote George Costanza “it’s not you, it’s me” 

7 thoughts on “Insecure”

  1. Don’t feel too bad about yourself. Your friend may not be as happy as you think. I have a few FB friends who seem to be extreme braggarts. I just skim over their fabulous vacation photos and move on.

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  2. You always have to remember Facebook presents the “highlights” reel of anyone’s life and we tend to compare that with our real lives, which pales because we are doing the best we can and we know our shortcomings. Yet, in this case, you are comparing yourself to someone where money is not a problem, so you can be envious. Memories with your kids, though, are priceless so I think that you are creating moments for them and you, that will last a lifetime. So, I still think it is a pretty good trade.

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  3. Money can come and go. You are developing and teaching your kids life skills that will come in handy! Being a survivor is being successful! Money does not equal happiness, although I agree it is a great stress reliever. Who knows? Maybe your friend is looking at your photos and thinking, “wow, they look so happy!”

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